The Body Shutdown: Feeling Like Your Body is Telling You to Die


Last night, I think I consumed an all-time high of carbs. I was slurping in Coke with a straw, my lips barely able to grasp the stupid thing. Candy, chocolate, you name it, I ate it.

My stomach was churning and I just laid on my couch, feeling the energy being sucked right out of me.

That’s when things got weird. I’m not sure if I ever felt this way before (maybe I blocked it out of my mind), but last night, I felt my body shutting down slowly.

Breathing became eerily calm and slow. My body felt light and airy. My physical body felt defeated.

It was over an hour before I felt like something inside me sparked and back I came. This was one of the most frightening experiences. And yet today, if you saw me, it was like nothing ever happened.

This. is. invisible. illness.


  1. Hi Jessica,

    Sorry to hear about your recent troubles with diabetes. You seem to have a hard time with it even though you work so hard to make it good. I feel like you take better care of yourself than I do, but sounds like you are having quite a few issues. Have you ever tried an insulin pump? It changed my life completely!



    1. Thanks so much James. I have not tried an insulin pump even though I do want to! I’m hoping with my next endo appointment I can make something happen. Thank you for taking the time to write to me. It means so much. Big hugs!


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